Friendship??

I was Always the kind of girl that had to message others first.In hope of not being forgoten.I though mybe they are bussy and cant talk now.But as time went by i stated to relize if people want me in their life then why im the only one putting any effort into our friendship.But what is a Friendship?(a state of mutual trust and support..) see thats the definition of it but how can i trust you when im trying to keep our "friendship" a float. And thats when it hit me im not really your friend im just some one you go to when you need something.But i knew this already i just didnt want to acknowledge it. Because if i did it would mean years waisted on a person that i cared deeply for. Someone that i liked because i found depth in you.I found you intresting and thats hard to find.In a world where we have  pointless conversations or converstions with no real meaning to them at all.conversation that i rather not have.You stood out but i was wrong.Because i remember it clearly that one day you didnt understand my joke and for whatever reason you decided it was okay to tell me i was being desperate. And you can't imagine what that did to me.It broke me and after that day i was never the same i build up walls after walls after walls. And all because you never really understood me who iam or what i stand for. So congratulations for pushing someone out of your life what cared and that only wished you the best. Your mistake was thinking it was okay for you to say thoughs words to me words that to this day are burned into my mind... Guess what i broke down my own walls..

Lesson of the day: make sure that a friendship working both ways.If not try to fix it.If you can't dump it.

Ps.ill always be here if anyone wants to talk.ik we all got problems and sometimes its good to be hurd.

Love you,
Over and out✌:)